There are moments where i think about how lucky and blessed I am for the life I have been given, for not having to worry about basic needs problems, for having people who show me and provide me with love, or the food I can have access to whenever I want, for being able to clean myself and pretty myself, for being able to chose how I grow, for having access to resources that are able to answer any possible questions I might have, and for so much more. When I think about these things that I would usually take for granted because they have become something normal to have in my life, a feeling inside me starts to awaken and I feel like I can never really give back as much as I have gotten. I look at my closet and realize that soon I’m going to need a bigger closet and then think about the other half of the world who go days on wearing the same clothes because they have no other alternative. At the same time i feel a rush of gratitude and let this feeling motivate me to seek my full potential, to have faith and be thankful that I am placed where I am for a reason, and that i do deserve it because it is the will of a natural force that has brought me to where I am.
I think about the different meanings for life people have, that has a lot to do with what kinds of blessings they’ve been given, the different kinds of struggles that people have to go through, their attitude towards everything, what they think about everything around them. I find that people who have nothing to lose are the ones most aware of everything around them. They search for meaning in everything because they know they are nothing while some are trying to build everything out of nothing; they see no meaning in valuing nothing, which is everything.
I pray that Allah gives me the wisdom to distinguish the meaningful from the meaningless, to give me the sight to see the beauty in everything without being attached to anything, to keep me close to all that which is good for me and keep me away from all that which is not me, to give me the ability to feel everything yet nothing, to make me of benefit to all that surrounds me, to make people see the good in me and find peace in that, to be able to help when called on for help, and to excuse and forgive all those who fail to see beyond a certain veil.